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There has been so much happening here lately I wish I would do a better job at blogging! I've been going back and forth in my mind if I should even continue to blog because I don't write as much as I should. But I haven't made up my mind to stop because I value the friendships it has brought me.
My husband and I have been here in the Bay Area for nearly 2 months. I seems like such a short time when I type it, but I feel like it's been forever! As my husband studies away, preparing for mid-terms, I sit here reflecting on this past year. I was discussing with my husband how much we have gone through in this past year (almost year) of marriage. It's been really challenging, dealing with sicknesses that came out of the blue and cost so much more than anyone would care to pay, dealing with the excitement of a pregnancy and the loss of the same. And then there were the emotional struggles all couples have to deal with while transforming 2 lives into 1. So many challenges so so many things we'd love not to have to deal with again. I've never been hit with so many things at once in my life before. All I keep praying for is that God has us swinging up-ward again even if it's slow.
I want you to know that I have been working on getting back into the word and prayer. I say this because it is my heart to use this blog as a place of encouragement to Women of Faith. But I needed to keep working to get back into that place, so the encouragement can come from a genuine spirit. So I'm working on it :)
Well we sure do miss you girly, but I'm pretty positive every single one of us understands completely how crazy life can get and it will get better again too. As far as getting back into the word and prayer, I know I never doubted your heart...we all go through times of lows when we're kind of struggling with it, but I never once doubted that your heart was in it for GOD's glory. You've been through a lot and you probably just needed time to process it all. I know I've told you several times before, but we have had and still have some really hard times dealt us, especially financially...and at our age it really gets me stressed out sometimes. It's a blow to the ego for sure but more than anything it's frustrating to feel like you're always fighting an uphill battle...the best I can tell you is to focus on that relationship of yours and GOD will get you through the rest. Sometimes I wonder how we've made it this far when we had the odds stacked against us. The one thing that's gotten us through those crummy times....our faith and our relationship.Hope I'm not preaching...just don't want you to feel alone. There's lots of us out there who've been there or are there right now. I'm definitely praying for you. I'm so glad GOD has kept that sweet little treat of yours safe! That's an answered prayer for sure!! Again, I hope I'm not being to overbearing, I just remember feeling like that so many times (still do from time to time...we're about to go through it again at almost 30 yrs old!) and it can feel so lonely when you see how easily it comes to so many other people around you...) I guess it just kind of hits home. Wishing you the best!
ReplyDeleteYour honesty and transparency is so beautiful. I will keep you in prayer. I understand how you are feeling. May God's blessings be on you, your husband, and your growing belly.
ReplyDeleteWow, Megan, you guys have been through so much in so little time. So excited for your pregnancy and praying God will give your spirits rest.
ReplyDeleteHi Megan,
ReplyDeleteI know you don't know me. I happened upon your blog by accident a month or so ago and I have to say - I love checking in with it and reading your blogs. They are so uplifting to me! :) I just love reading how God is working in someone else's life. You encourage me in my own walk. I speak at our Women's Ministries functions often and I even quoted something off your blog before. I talked about how "Prayer should be as natural to us as breathing." I had never heard that before and I loved it when I read it on your blog and had to share it with our women. I just wanted to let you know your blogs really touch my life. Thank you for being so real, so genuine, and so heartfelt. I pray God's blessing on this pregnancy for you.