Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Experiencing a Disconnect

 look who we found in the wilderness?!

I love being a stay at home mom.  It's hard for me to be away from Casey for very long.  Even some long naps are hard.  (As you can tell obviously I've had more time to blog because Casey is finally napping)  There's a draw back to taking care of an infant all day...and that's feeling disconnected from the world.

Don't get me wrong, I've never ever been a social butterfly.  I enjoy spending a lot of time at home, and have always enjoyed alone time.  But sometimes I miss things about being out in the world. Having a job is not fun but talking to the same people on a daily basis is nice.  I go to our local MOPS things at our church however, I find that every one is in my boat...they don't have a lot of time and we only see each other for a couple hours every other week.  This does not relationships make, at least not for an introvert like me.

Beyond that I've also been experiencing a disconnect in my relationship with Jesus.  So many times in the last 6 months I've thought "I wonder if the Lord cares if most of my prayers now-a-days are "Please God let him sleep tonight!" I don't know...but I've been thinking about seasons.  You know like seasons in your life, and I figure this is a good season to work on getting my relationship with Jesus back to a good place.

My little boy will be six months old tomorrow...I can't believe how fast it's gone by.  But I'm thankful now for some more regular sleeping patterns and yes, thankful for long naps too.

1 comment:

  1. Oh Megan, I am right there with you! I am feeling the same way lately. Disconnected is a good way of describing it! And I feel so guilty that my prayers are also "please, God, let her go to sleep!" I feel like I have more time, now that she naps on her own, to work on my quiet times with God-but then I get distracted by taking a nap myself, cleaning, or taking a shower! I think God understands this and the fact that you WANT a stronger relationship with him is a HUGE step in the right direction!! :)