Monday, April 26, 2010


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I was thinking today as I was working about how different I am this time around.  I've been working in retail since I was 16, but I haven't been doing it for about 3 years now.  I put myself through school by working in retail and for that reason I really wouldn't knock it.  But I used to be pretty popular when I worked back in the day, and this time around I'm really very quiet and keep to myself.  There is so much drama swirling around me and I just can't take it...but last time I was totally in the thick of it.  This doesn't mean that much most people get more mature with age... But I was thinking about when I was young and I was always thinking about what kind of person I want to be...I am always drawn to very outgoing people, I wish I could be one of you...But always in my mind I would be taking mental notes of how I could be like this or that person.
Sometimes I still think about that "oh I wish I could be like..." but then I just laugh at myself cause now I just am. I am just me and you can't make a fish a bird.  And I quite like being a fish too.  Happy new week!


  1. i feel the same things... i think sometimes i should be more outgoing and lively... but i feel most like myself when i'm quiet and laid back.

  2. I've always wondered what it would be like to be outgoing, bold and bubbly, but I've always been painfully shy and quiet until I get to know someone well...even then...I'm more laid back. :0)

  3. Hi Meg - I hear ya. I was really outgoing as a teen - always the first one to reach out to people and make them feel included. Now (goodness knows why) I'm much more shy (never thought I'd describe myself as shy) - I'd rather people reach out to me. That gets kinda lonely at times though b/c the reality is everybody is so caught up in themselves, very few take the time to reach out! Trying hard each day to find a balance, and be content with the few friends that I have.- I was so glad you mentioned being able to find your movies on Netflix or Amazon - I was going to ask that very question. The Four Daughters sounds very cute - an applicable b/c I grew up in a family of three girls, and all of us played instruments! Hope you're having a wonderful day my friend, ~Kristin

  4. I was always on the outside looking in, and in some ways and circles I still am. But now I see how God used that to make me the person I am today. I wouldn't change a thing! Just like you, I like being who I am.